yesterday, i realized something exceptionally important.  and i hope and trust this realization has a deep, transforming for the good impact in my life.

i realized

or, i wonder if it's that i decided

i decided that it is MY basic need to be delighted, continously, non stop, without fail.  sort of like breathing, if you know what i mean.

I NEED to be delighted as much ... perhaps even more actually ... than I need other things that we all take for granted.  

Delight is not to be underrated.

I mentioned this to a colleague of mine from work.  His eyes lit up and  he couldn't help but smile.  Exactly. That's the whole point.

Thank you Steve for helping me with this one. 

Delight as a basic human right.

absolf'____luitly.

:)

"you rock my world"

on the jukebox

crazy?

you betcha

nuts?

uhuh

an entertainer?

getting closer!

an actor?

on the nose

able capable increasingly comfortable

lucid, clear

able to identify who i am and what i hold dear

all i needed was a little break

from what some call the big ole rat race

shrugs

objectives

goals

friends

friendly energy

sensitive artistic beautiful 

sincere

quirky

n' exceptionally sensitive

quick, bright, sharp as a whip ... shrugs :)

the desire

to have a life

to live! 

exceptionally well 

to care

with no one telling me

who to be

what i am

the gap between who i am and what i experience

and what others see

exists

and we're both wondering

how can that be?

this vast gap between my inner and outer world view and reality

i'm working on that

work

shees

focus on your desire results

if i want it 

all i have to do is say it

insisting

meaning it

clarity!

beauty!

health

for myself and my family!

i'm part of a rather big family called humanity

and it extends beyond that too

my core

insists that i surround myself with people who understands

who shares what i adore

who'll support me without even thinking about it, maybe even knowing

because it's just who they are

easy support

delightful

supporting each other

success is guaranteed

you want your friends to succeed

you want to succeed

success is a seven letter word

the desire to do and be my best.

24/7.

far from delighted

i'm thinking

shees, time to start moving

one project after another

giving it thought and then some reflection

no more spinning wheels

cars can be moved

so can i today and tonight

considering

consideration

doing

being

thinking

feeling

respecting.

best way to respect something 

best way for something to respect you is to respect it

in this case? i'm speaking of my writing.

my time.

my calling

my dime.

it's my call.

and i've given it my all.

i'm cruel

beyond belief

i think we all are

and i think i've had enough

of the insensitivity

the lacking of 

something

let's talk

be open

get it all out

and that's what this project's been all about

"that's exceptionally brave of you"

people tell me all the time

i very much agree

and i ask myself

why?! why write?

why put it out there

and why flow

why not edit once in a while

or why not choose a subject

order 

organization

discipline

i'd rather flow

and trust natural formation of thoughts feelings clarity coherency

i'd rather flow

and believe 

there's a gift in all this

i chose to flow

because i don't often follow my mom's advice

and she told me so

go with the flow he said

and i said pulease

go with the flow she said

and i thought shees.

go with the flow

you want flow?

here you go.

:)

no longer angry

focused on delight and delightful energy

my aim is true

i simply was born to entertain you

lol

day and night

but excuse me while i continue to work my way out of my plight

"it has less to do with effort (hard work, toil and trouble) and more to do with ... wanting it. really wanting it.  and the results." ff

absolutely.