"you're such a natural at what you do.  and it shows that you're really enjoying yourself. and you do your job so well. 

i'm completely taken back when you say you're so uncomfortable and at unease inside.  it doesn't show. it doesn't show at all."

my manager said to me yesterday, as we chatted about my experiences with the job.

i don't know why there's such a disconnect. but there is. and it's my job to close the gap.

addressing what's troubling me

so that i no longer feel the need to apologize nor explain

for my behaviour

i can simply be

sweet lovin' n' happy

:]

emotionally able and capable

of lettin' go

of flying high

of touching, reaching n' extending

the sky

yes!

passionate!

able capable

of caring

daringly

and darlingly

with the innocence of a child

why?

because it's so beautiful

because it's a kind 

of freedom

because it's a beautiful way of livin'

what was i saying?

:)

expressing

paying attention to the details

the feelings

ah yes.

time to look back

so i can see where the original thought drifted and dropped off

emotionally able and capable

of reaching

touching and extending

my skies

is writing work

or is it more of my feeling like a dork

(not)

right

rock.

writing

making what's wrong right

what if it's all right

then what

oh yeah

lol

rock to the left

rock to the right

let's rock each other's worlds

let's rock our own worlds day and night

rock my world on the jukebox

mjackson

the desire to let go

open up

a quote from simplicity

"openess simplifies complexity"

lots of yeses tonight.

and complete clarity

it's a beautiful thing

that i'm totally appreciating

that's right.

let's rock

to the left

let's rock

to the right

let's rock our worlds

right here

and now

today tomorrow yesterday and tonight

with point and purpose

that we enjoy ourselves and each other

it's 

shees

so important

one of those life priority things.

i said

to a friend and colleague

he agreed and said what i was saying was right on and beautiful

refreshing.

passion is rewarded with success

unexpected perhaps

but if it's real

it'll always be in top form

and at it's best

"there are all sorts of challenges", i explained to my manager

(and god how i wish to excel)

but key here is the issue of

what i wish to excel at

what challenge i wish to take on

make my own

making it personal 

there are all sorts of challenges, the question is which challenge to take on. step up to the plate for. adore.

and absolutely understanding the what for.

familiar and unfamiliar ground.

to take a stand

and yes, this is my stance

and yes it makes me want to sing, fly, dance

and if you only knew

what i've been going through

you'd say

sing, fly, dance away

and maybe even you'd be able to relate

and find  yourself singing, flying, and dancing too

and perhaps your neighbor too

and none of us would feel like a fool

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