yesterday i made a pact to enjoy my own company. no matter what's going down. where i'm at. what i've got to do. as a way of getting myself of out the woe is me blues. not to trivialize my long lived depression. everyone needs something to care about, and what i care most about is how i experience myself as i live my days and nights.

i really have to keep reminding myself.

wierd huh?





yeah.
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now that i've given notice, i'm freaking out. but there's a fish store that's always hiring and keenly interested in staff that actually would give a damn and show up on time. would they pay $12. an hour? i asked. min. wage leo, the manager replied. and it would be a slow climb up in term of raises.

damn i said. that's what i thought.

the fish tanks looked so clean, so nice. i like working with people who are experts, do a great job doing what they do and care. and i love animals.




moving on.