where am i heading?
with all this flow
do you know child
where you want to go?





"thank god i'm a country boy"
john denver on john's music box





hey, i just want to sing, and dance
to laugh and play
hey, i want to work
and earn my keep
and way


this forelorn love business is over rated
i'll take true joy and pleasure any day


hurray ;-)



"thank god i'm a country boy"
the man could sure sing


hey hey
okay



what's this all about
lifted spirits
refreshing being and thinking


i don't know
it's about letting loose


"it's about looking for something i believe in
it's about looking for something to do with my life"
john denver on the boom box


thanks john
i need that

"i don't know what the future is holding and storing,
i don't know where i'm going
i'm not sure where i've been

there's a spirit that guides me ..."


thanks again.


"sweet, sweet surrender
live, live without care
like a fish in the water
like a bird in the air"


and once more :)


"sweet, sweet surrender
live, live without care
like a fish in the water
like a bird in the air."


i don't do things based on a dare
and it's not as if i don't care
au contraire
but



"just be here to day."



given a choice
i'd chose a spirit
who cares
that my days and nights
through and through
are filled with joy
and pleasure too.

december 21, 2008.
a wish.
a dream.
no longer the desire to scream.
no longer wondering if others are thinking, is she ok? is she coming apart at the seams?


never the case
i just needed a mentor

an understanding
there was a spirit
to guide me
gently along
around the pot holes
and through the loops and hoops
joyous actions
one after another
i'll forever write
to make things increasingly and repeatedly, continuously too





the things that bring me delirious yet peacefully so pleasure:

taking a bit of something so good, that i place my fork down and say thank you that was very good.


staring up into the sky. big white snowflakes coming down. white snow everywhere, in the sky and on the ground,
laughing. marveling. true bliss n' genuine no harm no foul happiness.